Today's topic (repeat from last week *sigh*) comes from http://www.sundaystealing.blogspot.com/ The questions this week are kinda heavy, but I'll do my best to tackle them...
1. What were doing 10 years ago? ~ working for Disney...just met Mike...living in the moment...having some of the best times of my life...
2. Five snacks that you enjoy in a perfect, non weight-gaining world ~ 1) cheetos 2) fritos 3) super-loaded nachos 4) Mickey Ice Cream Bars 5) just about anything that tastes good that is not good for you!!!
3. Five things you would do if you were a billionaire: 1) build my own community...just me and my family 2) get the best teachers for Michael 3) visit Walt Disney World whenever I wanted to 4) take care of my family and friends 5) give to Autism related causes and the Humane Society
4. Three of your habits: 1) too much TV 2) too much computer 3) working out every morning
5. Five jobs that you've have had: ~ sadly, I have only really had three... 1) Lane Bryant (associate, Co-Manager, Assistant Manager) 2) The Walt Disney Company (different position at TDS and WDW) and 3) First Community Credit Union
6. Five places that you've lived: ~ sadly...only two 1) Saint Louis, MO and 2) Florida (Windermere and Kissimmee)
7. Five things that you did yesterday: ~ since I am writing this ahead of time, it is really a Sunday post written on Friday, so I will go over what I did on Thursday... 1) worked (ugh) 2) talked to Mike 3) played with Michael, 4) emailed Lia 5) went to bed
8. Five people you would want to get to know more about: ~ not really sure...would have loved to have met Walt Disney, wished I knew my father's father (he passed when I was 4) and wished my Grandmother were still alive...I loved her dearly and think that we would be so much closer now that I am an adult...we were close, but there were a lot of grandchildren and I kinda feel like I was lost in the shuffle...
9. Abortion: for or against it? ~ not against it, but I would not have one...
10. Do you think the world would fail with a female president? ~ no...sex does not matter...leadership does...
11. Do you believe in the death penalty? ~ yes
12. Do you wish marijuana would be legalized already? ~ personally, no...I could care less...
13. Are you for or against premarital sex? ~ I would be in trouble if I were against it...it was no big deal to me...
14. Do you think same sex marriage should be legalized? ~ can't everyone be happy???
15. Do you think it's wrong that so many Hispanics are illegally moving to the USA? ~ illegally...YES...legally...no...
16. Should the alcohol age be lowered to eighteen? ~ yes
17. Should the war in Iraq be called off? ~ it's been over for a loooonnnnnggg time...
18. Assisted suicide is illegal: do you agree? ~ yes
19. Do you believe in spanking your children? ~ beating, no...a spank here or there never hurt anyone...
20. Do you worry that others will judge you from reading some of your answers? ~ not really...
Love to All.
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Saturday, March 27, 2010
...Saturday Nine...
Today's blog idea came from http://www.samanthasaturday9.blogspot.com/ There are nine random questions, usually pretty fun!!!
1. How vain are you about how you look? ~ I can be pretty vain...I think it comes from me getting to the size that I was at my heaviest. I thought that, perhaps, if I looked good, clothes, hair and makeup wise, then people might not notice how big I really was.
2. When you were little what was your favorite TV show? ~ Little House on the Prairie and Three's Company. To watch them today, is painful.
3. If someone was going to make a movie or TV show about your life, who would play you and why? ~ that is a tough one...I am not sure...but I do know that I model a lot of my life after Roseanne...on the show, the early episodes...not in real life or the later seasons...
4. Who is your favorite Major League Baseball team? How about your favorite player? ~ OMG, born and bred a Saint Louis Cardinals fan. My favorite player when I was a teenager was their catcher, Tom Pagnozzi. Funny story there.
5. What is your favorite baseball-related movie? ~ A League of Their Own
6. What is one lesson you have learned in the past year? ~ My husband REALLY does know what he is talking about.
7. Tell us about one of your childhood memories. ~ my favorite memories are from summers...staying out late, until the street light came on...just playing, being kids...those golden summer nights...
8. How do you handle sticky situations? Do you have a method? If so, what is it? ~ Oh I have no method for sticky situations...I kind of just melt...I don't like to be in sticky situations...
9. Do you think people talk about you behind your back? ~ the self-conscious side of me says hell yes...
Love to All.
1. How vain are you about how you look? ~ I can be pretty vain...I think it comes from me getting to the size that I was at my heaviest. I thought that, perhaps, if I looked good, clothes, hair and makeup wise, then people might not notice how big I really was.
2. When you were little what was your favorite TV show? ~ Little House on the Prairie and Three's Company. To watch them today, is painful.
3. If someone was going to make a movie or TV show about your life, who would play you and why? ~ that is a tough one...I am not sure...but I do know that I model a lot of my life after Roseanne...on the show, the early episodes...not in real life or the later seasons...
4. Who is your favorite Major League Baseball team? How about your favorite player? ~ OMG, born and bred a Saint Louis Cardinals fan. My favorite player when I was a teenager was their catcher, Tom Pagnozzi. Funny story there.
5. What is your favorite baseball-related movie? ~ A League of Their Own
6. What is one lesson you have learned in the past year? ~ My husband REALLY does know what he is talking about.
7. Tell us about one of your childhood memories. ~ my favorite memories are from summers...staying out late, until the street light came on...just playing, being kids...those golden summer nights...
8. How do you handle sticky situations? Do you have a method? If so, what is it? ~ Oh I have no method for sticky situations...I kind of just melt...I don't like to be in sticky situations...
9. Do you think people talk about you behind your back? ~ the self-conscious side of me says hell yes...
Love to All.
Friday, March 26, 2010
Mommy Moments
I got this idea from http://www.mommyjourney.com/. Today's topic is Summer Days are here. Well, technically, it is only 49 degrees right now here in MO...but I can look ahead to the summer. There are going to be so many changes...I am SO excited. One thing that will remain the same this summer is that Little Man will be playing T-Ball. He loves it so much, and it is so good to see him get out and run around. I love to watch him interact with the other children. He might not be the best player...but they are all 4 and 5...nobody is the quite Albert Pujols yet!!! The kids have so much fun. Since Little Man is an August baby, he still has another year of T-Ball before he graduates to Coach Pitch Baseball. I get frustrated that he is always the oldest...in school, on the teams and in things like swim lessons...but I have to remember that waiting is the best thing for him. T-Ball starts in May...but in the meantime, I will post some photos from last season...
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
...Tackle it Tuesday...
I found this at http://www.5minutesformom.com/ when I was trying to get ideas for the blog. Tackle it Tuesday. Lots of stuff that I have to tackle...but first and foremost is getting my house absolutely ready for July 1st. What is July 1st, you ask??? July 1st is the day that I am going to open my home to children. That is when I am going to have quit my job and decided to take care of other kids as my career. I am so excited. We have done a lot of work, but the biggest jobs left to do are organizing the basement and fixing the fence in the backyard. I love organization, but I am not very good at it. I am fortunate that Mike will help me out. I have to get all of the toys organized by age. I also have to shop for new (or new to us) toys. That will be hard. :) I want to make sure that I have toys for both boys and girls and for ages 1-5. What a challenge!!! The big tackle is the fence. This will have to wait until after we get the Trust Money in May...right now, we can't afford it. The fence may need to be dug up and completely replaced. Ugh. However, we are looking at it as an investment. I am so excited.
I can't wait to keep everyone posted on progress. I am no housewife, I am terrible at cooking and cleaning. I am going to give it my all. Of course, couldn't today because my back spazzed out. Like let's go to the ER spazzing out. I am suffering through the pain for now, but it is harder and harder. Will keep you posted on that one.
Love to All.
I can't wait to keep everyone posted on progress. I am no housewife, I am terrible at cooking and cleaning. I am going to give it my all. Of course, couldn't today because my back spazzed out. Like let's go to the ER spazzing out. I am suffering through the pain for now, but it is harder and harder. Will keep you posted on that one.
Love to All.
Monday, March 22, 2010
...Manic Monday...
...this is an idea that I got from http://www.thedailymeme.com/; it had a link to http://www.manicmondaymeme.blogspot.com/. There are some topics to discuss...maybe provoke something in me...
What do you value most in other people?
If you could only see black and white except for one color, what color would you choose to see?
You have a 10 minute speech to give at a high school, what is it about?
These are pretty tough!!! What do I value most in other people??? I would say honesty. I can't stand when someone is not honest. I feel like I have been cheated or taken for granted if someone is not honest with me. I do NOT like feeling that way.
What color would I choose to see if you could only see black, white and one other color??? Wow. I would say blue. That is kind of a creepy topic. I don't like this one.
What would my 10 minute speech to high schoolers be about??? I would say not giving up. I have a lot of regrets from my late teens/early adult stage. I wish I hadn't given up. Life is what you make it. I am doing okay now, but wishes things had gone a little differently then so it would be easier now. You can't change the past...but can work on the present and look toward the future. Sieze the future. Make it yours.
Love to All.
What do you value most in other people?
If you could only see black and white except for one color, what color would you choose to see?
You have a 10 minute speech to give at a high school, what is it about?
These are pretty tough!!! What do I value most in other people??? I would say honesty. I can't stand when someone is not honest. I feel like I have been cheated or taken for granted if someone is not honest with me. I do NOT like feeling that way.
What color would I choose to see if you could only see black, white and one other color??? Wow. I would say blue. That is kind of a creepy topic. I don't like this one.
What would my 10 minute speech to high schoolers be about??? I would say not giving up. I have a lot of regrets from my late teens/early adult stage. I wish I hadn't given up. Life is what you make it. I am doing okay now, but wishes things had gone a little differently then so it would be easier now. You can't change the past...but can work on the present and look toward the future. Sieze the future. Make it yours.
Love to All.
Sunday, March 21, 2010
...Sunday Stealing...
...this is a "topic" that I grabbed from http://www.thedailymeme.com/ to help with blogging ideas. Since I am tired and cranky this evening, I figured that this would be easiest...
Sunday Stealing: The Eight Tens Meme
TEN TO START.
1. Are you single? ~ no...married to my DH, Mike
2. Are you happy? ~ depends...right now, I am kinda cranky...no surprise there...
3. Are you bored? ~ yes...that is why I am writing on my blog...
4. Are you naked? ~ no
5. Are you a blonde? ~ thanks to my wonderful hairdresser, I have blonde highlights...
6. Are you moody? ~ not when I remember to take my medication!!! ;)
7. Are you a lover/hater? ~ a lover, though I can be snarky...does that make me a hater???
8. Are you hot/cold? ~ FREEZING...though I now have Katy Perry going through my head...
9. Are you Irish? ~ nope, German...
10. Are you Asian? ~ nope...
TEN FACTS.
1. Name: ~ Christine Alice
2. Nicknames: ~ Chrissy, Ed, Mommy
3. Birth mark: ~ small one on my left arm, tiny..
4. Hair color: ~ light brown/dark blonde with highlights
5. Natural hair color: ~ dirty blonde
6. Eye color: ~ blue
7. Height: ~ almost 5"11
8. Facebook Mood: ~ I guess it is okay...asking for pixie dust and magic!!!
9. Favorite color: ~ red or yellow (indecisive)
10. One Place to Visit: Walt Disney World, DUH!!! :)
TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE.
1. Do you believe in love at first sight? ~ yes
2. Do you believe in soul mates? ~ yes
4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally? ~ yes...hey, what happened to number three???
5. Have you ever broken someone’s heart? ~ yes...apparently so...
6. Have you ever been cheated on? ~ yes
7. Have you ever liked someone and not told them? ~ when I was like twelve...
8. Are you afraid of commitment? ~ nope
9. Who was the last person you hugged? ~ Michael Anthony
10. Who was the last person you kissed? ~ Michael Anthony
TEN THIS OR THAT.
1. Love or lust? ~ love
3. Cats or dogs? ~ dogs...what happened to number two??? I feel cheated...
4. A few best friends or many regular friends? ~ a few besties
5. Television or internet? ~ TOUGH!!! Could never, ever choose between the two...
6. Chinese Or Indian? ~ Ick...neither..
7. Wild night out or romantic night in? ~ wild night??? Don't do those much anymore...romantic in??? it has to include Little Man...so it is most likely does not involve much romance...
8. Money or Happiness? ~ happiness...I am apparently living the dream as we speak...we are SO broke...
9. Night or day? ~ used to be a night owl...but now I am a day person...don't believe it...
10. MSN or phone? ~ phone for texting/facebook. MSN...really???
TEN HAVE YOU EVER.
1. Been caught sneaking out? ~gee, when I was like 15...
2. Been skinny dipping? ~ ewww...no, ick...
3. Stolen? ~ do ink pens from work count???
4. Bungee Jumped? ~ nope, but would love to...
5. Lied to someone you liked? ~ not that I remember...
6. Fnished an entire jaw breaker? ~ never liked them...now Gobstoppers on the other hand...
8. Wanted an ex bf/gf back? ~ used to...but now I am older and wiser...
9. Cried because you lost a pet? ~ oh yes...cried when my dog died...and I get upset when one of our current dogs runs away...afraid for her...
10. Wanted to disappear? ~ yes
TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER.
1. Smile or eyes? ~ smile
2. Light or dark hair? ~ dark
3. Hugs or kisses? ~ hugs
4. Shorter or taller? ~ taller
5. Intelligence or attraction? ~ intelligence
6. Romantic or spontaneous? ~ spontaneous
7. Funny or serious? ~ funny
8. Older or Younger? ~ older
9. Outgoing or quiet? ~ quiet, since I am outgoing...the yin to my yang...
10. Sweet or Bad Ass? ~ used to be bad ass...see where that got me...now sweet...
TEN HAVE YOU’S.
1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd? ~ do high school plays count???
2. Ever done drugs? ~ no, seriously
3. Ever been pregnant? ~ yep
5. Ever been on a cheer leading team? ~ heavens, no...damnit, what happened to four...
6. Ever Been on a dance team? ~ no...gawd, are we in highschool still???
7. Ever been on a sports team? ~ soccer
8. Ever been in a drama play/production? ~ yes
9. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley? ~ no
10. Ever been in a rap video? ~ oh yeah, that's me shakin' it in the background...
TEN LASTS.
1. Last phone call you made: ~ Mike
2. Last person you hung out with: ~ Mike
4. Last time you worked: ~ just today...915-330...not gonna ask about question three...
5. Last person you tackled: ~ um...nobody, ever...
6. Last person you IM’d: ~ Daniel, my brother...
8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with: ~ Mike...what about number seven..
9. Last thing you missed: ~ Michael when I had to leave for work this morning...
10. Last thing you ate: ~ cheesey ranch chicken pasta...it was okay...sounded better than it was...
Love To All.
Sunday Stealing: The Eight Tens Meme
TEN TO START.
1. Are you single? ~ no...married to my DH, Mike
2. Are you happy? ~ depends...right now, I am kinda cranky...no surprise there...
3. Are you bored? ~ yes...that is why I am writing on my blog...
4. Are you naked? ~ no
5. Are you a blonde? ~ thanks to my wonderful hairdresser, I have blonde highlights...
6. Are you moody? ~ not when I remember to take my medication!!! ;)
7. Are you a lover/hater? ~ a lover, though I can be snarky...does that make me a hater???
8. Are you hot/cold? ~ FREEZING...though I now have Katy Perry going through my head...
9. Are you Irish? ~ nope, German...
10. Are you Asian? ~ nope...
TEN FACTS.
1. Name: ~ Christine Alice
2. Nicknames: ~ Chrissy, Ed, Mommy
3. Birth mark: ~ small one on my left arm, tiny..
4. Hair color: ~ light brown/dark blonde with highlights
5. Natural hair color: ~ dirty blonde
6. Eye color: ~ blue
7. Height: ~ almost 5"11
8. Facebook Mood: ~ I guess it is okay...asking for pixie dust and magic!!!
9. Favorite color: ~ red or yellow (indecisive)
10. One Place to Visit: Walt Disney World, DUH!!! :)
TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE.
1. Do you believe in love at first sight? ~ yes
2. Do you believe in soul mates? ~ yes
4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally? ~ yes...hey, what happened to number three???
5. Have you ever broken someone’s heart? ~ yes...apparently so...
6. Have you ever been cheated on? ~ yes
7. Have you ever liked someone and not told them? ~ when I was like twelve...
8. Are you afraid of commitment? ~ nope
9. Who was the last person you hugged? ~ Michael Anthony
10. Who was the last person you kissed? ~ Michael Anthony
TEN THIS OR THAT.
1. Love or lust? ~ love
3. Cats or dogs? ~ dogs...what happened to number two??? I feel cheated...
4. A few best friends or many regular friends? ~ a few besties
5. Television or internet? ~ TOUGH!!! Could never, ever choose between the two...
6. Chinese Or Indian? ~ Ick...neither..
7. Wild night out or romantic night in? ~ wild night??? Don't do those much anymore...romantic in??? it has to include Little Man...so it is most likely does not involve much romance...
8. Money or Happiness? ~ happiness...I am apparently living the dream as we speak...we are SO broke...
9. Night or day? ~ used to be a night owl...but now I am a day person...don't believe it...
10. MSN or phone? ~ phone for texting/facebook. MSN...really???
TEN HAVE YOU EVER.
1. Been caught sneaking out? ~gee, when I was like 15...
2. Been skinny dipping? ~ ewww...no, ick...
3. Stolen? ~ do ink pens from work count???
4. Bungee Jumped? ~ nope, but would love to...
5. Lied to someone you liked? ~ not that I remember...
6. Fnished an entire jaw breaker? ~ never liked them...now Gobstoppers on the other hand...
8. Wanted an ex bf/gf back? ~ used to...but now I am older and wiser...
9. Cried because you lost a pet? ~ oh yes...cried when my dog died...and I get upset when one of our current dogs runs away...afraid for her...
10. Wanted to disappear? ~ yes
TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER.
1. Smile or eyes? ~ smile
2. Light or dark hair? ~ dark
3. Hugs or kisses? ~ hugs
4. Shorter or taller? ~ taller
5. Intelligence or attraction? ~ intelligence
6. Romantic or spontaneous? ~ spontaneous
7. Funny or serious? ~ funny
8. Older or Younger? ~ older
9. Outgoing or quiet? ~ quiet, since I am outgoing...the yin to my yang...
10. Sweet or Bad Ass? ~ used to be bad ass...see where that got me...now sweet...
TEN HAVE YOU’S.
1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd? ~ do high school plays count???
2. Ever done drugs? ~ no, seriously
3. Ever been pregnant? ~ yep
5. Ever been on a cheer leading team? ~ heavens, no...damnit, what happened to four...
6. Ever Been on a dance team? ~ no...gawd, are we in highschool still???
7. Ever been on a sports team? ~ soccer
8. Ever been in a drama play/production? ~ yes
9. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley? ~ no
10. Ever been in a rap video? ~ oh yeah, that's me shakin' it in the background...
TEN LASTS.
1. Last phone call you made: ~ Mike
2. Last person you hung out with: ~ Mike
4. Last time you worked: ~ just today...915-330...not gonna ask about question three...
5. Last person you tackled: ~ um...nobody, ever...
6. Last person you IM’d: ~ Daniel, my brother...
8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with: ~ Mike...what about number seven..
9. Last thing you missed: ~ Michael when I had to leave for work this morning...
10. Last thing you ate: ~ cheesey ranch chicken pasta...it was okay...sounded better than it was...
Love To All.
Friday, March 19, 2010
...Only Good Things Today...
I have been something of a Debbie Downer lately. Seem to be in something of a funk. I am trying to snap out of it. I have good moments, and I have bad moments. Lately, the bad moments seem to be outweighing the good. I am trying.
I was looking around the internet for ideas for my blog. I could blog about "Mommy Moments", "Four Foods Friday", "Friday Fill-In" and "Food For Thought" Friday...but I came across "Only The Good" Friday. THAT is the blog topic that I should be working on.
Things that I am thankful for...things that I love...things that make me smile. Only the good today.
...I have an amazing husband who supports my dreams. He helps me through the thick and thin. He is there when I am having bad days, and celebrates when I have good days. He loves me no matter what, and takes all of the crap that I can dish out.
...my son is my reason for being. Michael is amazing, himself. I watch him learn and grow every single day. He has overcome certain obstacles...and just crushed them. He is so smart and so intelligent. He just has a different way of doing things...and that is okay...that is what makes him unique.
...I have a roof over my head, clothes on my back and food in my belly. My family is so much fun, and I love them all so much.
...we live a comfortable life...and I should not be complaining. Our struggles are supposed to make us stronger. I need to remember that. I should not be afraid.
That is what I have come up with this evening...short and sweet...mainly because I am tired!!! I will try to focus on the positive, even if it is only on Fridays!!!
Love to All.
I was looking around the internet for ideas for my blog. I could blog about "Mommy Moments", "Four Foods Friday", "Friday Fill-In" and "Food For Thought" Friday...but I came across "Only The Good" Friday. THAT is the blog topic that I should be working on.
Things that I am thankful for...things that I love...things that make me smile. Only the good today.
...I have an amazing husband who supports my dreams. He helps me through the thick and thin. He is there when I am having bad days, and celebrates when I have good days. He loves me no matter what, and takes all of the crap that I can dish out.
...my son is my reason for being. Michael is amazing, himself. I watch him learn and grow every single day. He has overcome certain obstacles...and just crushed them. He is so smart and so intelligent. He just has a different way of doing things...and that is okay...that is what makes him unique.
...I have a roof over my head, clothes on my back and food in my belly. My family is so much fun, and I love them all so much.
...we live a comfortable life...and I should not be complaining. Our struggles are supposed to make us stronger. I need to remember that. I should not be afraid.
That is what I have come up with this evening...short and sweet...mainly because I am tired!!! I will try to focus on the positive, even if it is only on Fridays!!!
Love to All.
Thursday, March 18, 2010
...scale is stuck...or just outta whack...
Okay...so I am paying to go to the Weight Watchers meetings..however, I am not going to said meeting. I have every excuse in the book as to why I have not gone...sick, pink eye, slept in...none really good (except maybe the pink eye one...but it was Little Man who had it, not me...). I have taken to weighing myself at home and recording my weight online. Um. Normally this would not bother me...BUT the weight that I recorded this morning was the EXACT SAME as the last weight I recorded on 3/2/10. Exact same??? I have not gained or lost so much as a tenth of a pound in the last two weeks??? I find that kind of hard to believe.
I think it is time for a new scale. *sigh*
On another note, our pro/con list is weighing very heavily to staying here right now. Mike is willing to give it a year to see how it goes.
I think we have found a good combination of meds for my bi-polar depression. Let's keep our fingers crossed.
Love to all.
I think it is time for a new scale. *sigh*
On another note, our pro/con list is weighing very heavily to staying here right now. Mike is willing to give it a year to see how it goes.
I think we have found a good combination of meds for my bi-polar depression. Let's keep our fingers crossed.
Love to all.
Monday, March 15, 2010
...still on the fence...
Okay...so I have gotten the ball rolling on following my dream. Nothing much has happened in the last week, except every day I think about quitting my job. I have never been so determined to quit a decent job in my life.
What we are still on the fence about is moving to Florida. That is still in the back of our minds. I know, you are most likely tired of hearing about it...I get tired thinking about it!!! Problem right now is that there are not jobs available at Disney in the departments we are interested in. My feeling is that we should just apply. If we get called about a job, we need to take it as a sign that we belong back down there. The logical side of me says to give it a year...see how the caring for children thing goes. We need to stay here...our house is perfect, the schools are great for Michael, Mike has a decent job with great benefits. If I can get the home-based daycare off the ground, then I will be bringing in decent money and staying at home with my son. If we move to Florida, we will both be working full-time and our hours may suck. Our hours suck right now, that is why I am so down right now. I never see my husband. I don't know if it will get any better if we move.
I keep talking about jumping in with both feet...but get timid right around the water's edge. Just sticking my toe in right now.
Still on the fence. That hasn't changed.
Love to All.
What we are still on the fence about is moving to Florida. That is still in the back of our minds. I know, you are most likely tired of hearing about it...I get tired thinking about it!!! Problem right now is that there are not jobs available at Disney in the departments we are interested in. My feeling is that we should just apply. If we get called about a job, we need to take it as a sign that we belong back down there. The logical side of me says to give it a year...see how the caring for children thing goes. We need to stay here...our house is perfect, the schools are great for Michael, Mike has a decent job with great benefits. If I can get the home-based daycare off the ground, then I will be bringing in decent money and staying at home with my son. If we move to Florida, we will both be working full-time and our hours may suck. Our hours suck right now, that is why I am so down right now. I never see my husband. I don't know if it will get any better if we move.
I keep talking about jumping in with both feet...but get timid right around the water's edge. Just sticking my toe in right now.
Still on the fence. That hasn't changed.
Love to All.
Monday, March 8, 2010
...waiting on the world to change...
Okay...so I am not really waiting on the WORLD to change...I am waiting on ME to change. I can't complain until I actually DO something.
Today is the day.
I have put in applications with the school district for temporary employment...just to get me through the next couple of months. Why, you ask, am I putting in applications when I have a full time job???
Because today is the day. Today, the straw broke the camel's back. Today. My job forced me to choose between caring for my sick son and going into work.
Michael has Pink Eye. Highly contagious. My parents, who care for Michael, are out of town for the week. My sister is in charge of Michael and AJ on Tuesday. My sister did not want to take care of a sick kid. I don't blame her. I called my boss to let her know that I would not be in on Tuesday, since Michael is sick. Yeah. My boss SHOT that down. Let me know that since I was on probation (really, that is news to me) about my attendance that I would lose my job.
Did she just threaten me with my job???
I am SO ready to quit. I really would quit, except I like everyone that I work with, and don't want to put them in a pickle.
I talked my sister into taking care of Michael, eyedrops and all...on Tuesday. I just pray that my nephew does not catch the Pink Eye.
This is why I am looking for a change. I am ready.
Love to All.
Today is the day.
I have put in applications with the school district for temporary employment...just to get me through the next couple of months. Why, you ask, am I putting in applications when I have a full time job???
Because today is the day. Today, the straw broke the camel's back. Today. My job forced me to choose between caring for my sick son and going into work.
Michael has Pink Eye. Highly contagious. My parents, who care for Michael, are out of town for the week. My sister is in charge of Michael and AJ on Tuesday. My sister did not want to take care of a sick kid. I don't blame her. I called my boss to let her know that I would not be in on Tuesday, since Michael is sick. Yeah. My boss SHOT that down. Let me know that since I was on probation (really, that is news to me) about my attendance that I would lose my job.
Did she just threaten me with my job???
I am SO ready to quit. I really would quit, except I like everyone that I work with, and don't want to put them in a pickle.
I talked my sister into taking care of Michael, eyedrops and all...on Tuesday. I just pray that my nephew does not catch the Pink Eye.
This is why I am looking for a change. I am ready.
Love to All.
Friday, March 5, 2010
Ikea
Some of my Disney Tweep friends were twittering about Ikea on Thursday. I have not been, as the closest Ikea to Saint Louis is in the Chicago area, six hours away. I was under the impression that there was one in Kansas City (a mere three hours away) but alas, I was mistaken. I decided to check out their website.
I. Am. In. Love.
I can't believe all of the wonderful things that they offer. And this is just on the website. I could not imagine what an actual store is like. They even have a foodcourt. I wonder if it is like a Costco. I would fall in love with it. Saint Louis needs an Ikea. Saint Louis is not the sticks, we are not hillbillies. We deserve fine European inspired furniture and Swedish Meatballs served in a Food Court style setting.
I was most impressed with their lines of organization for children...such as bins for toys. That is my latest obsession. Okay. One of my many obsessions. With the talk of starting up an in-home daycare and just Little Man's toys in general, I am always looking for the best way to store toys. There is no GOOD way. Mike is willing to build me some toy storage systems...but I see what Ikea has to offer and figure that may be the way to go...of course, Mike would be putting them together anyway...but the wood is already measured and cut...so it would be good to go. He might balk at the price, plus we would have to pay for shipping...BUT I have to remind him that it will be worth it.
Until then, I will have to dream. Target makes pretty good storage solutions (their Itso line) but I wonder how it is constructed. Maybe that is what I will have to go for, since we don't have an Ikea nearby. I can just hear me pleading with Mike that we have to drive to Chicago for a weekend to go shopping. He is gonna love that..especailly after I told him I am NOT leaving Disney World in September with no fewer than FIVE Disney Dooney & Burke bags. Heck. I really just want the first two. I will be happy with those. ;)
Love to All.
I. Am. In. Love.
I can't believe all of the wonderful things that they offer. And this is just on the website. I could not imagine what an actual store is like. They even have a foodcourt. I wonder if it is like a Costco. I would fall in love with it. Saint Louis needs an Ikea. Saint Louis is not the sticks, we are not hillbillies. We deserve fine European inspired furniture and Swedish Meatballs served in a Food Court style setting.
I was most impressed with their lines of organization for children...such as bins for toys. That is my latest obsession. Okay. One of my many obsessions. With the talk of starting up an in-home daycare and just Little Man's toys in general, I am always looking for the best way to store toys. There is no GOOD way. Mike is willing to build me some toy storage systems...but I see what Ikea has to offer and figure that may be the way to go...of course, Mike would be putting them together anyway...but the wood is already measured and cut...so it would be good to go. He might balk at the price, plus we would have to pay for shipping...BUT I have to remind him that it will be worth it.
Until then, I will have to dream. Target makes pretty good storage solutions (their Itso line) but I wonder how it is constructed. Maybe that is what I will have to go for, since we don't have an Ikea nearby. I can just hear me pleading with Mike that we have to drive to Chicago for a weekend to go shopping. He is gonna love that..especailly after I told him I am NOT leaving Disney World in September with no fewer than FIVE Disney Dooney & Burke bags. Heck. I really just want the first two. I will be happy with those. ;)
Love to All.
Thursday, March 4, 2010
...Thursday Thoughts...
I tend to get mopey when Mike has to go off to work. I would prefer that, on my days off, he take a sick day and stay with me. Of course, that is not possible. We would be even worse off than we already are. I told him that I was ready to just go ahead and quit my job. He said that I have had a taste of what a stay at home Mom is like...and I really, REALLY like it. My past two days have had purpose. I have not been on autopilot. I have has something to do. Now, of course...the house is not 100% perfect...but I have kept up on laundry and the kitchen. The carpets need a good vaccumming, the bathroom needs scrubbing and the floors need washing...BUT I have kept up on the kitchen and laundry!!!
I feel guilty because I was not able to be around for Michael when he was little. Of course, I can make up for it now. I can be the Mom that I always wanted to be. I just need to quit this stupid job and focus on what is important.
I need to get my butt in gear. I need to get things in order so I can quit my job. So I can open my home to children. I am very excited. We got the spare room cleaned out. Next on the agenda is the basement...that is going to be hardest...but Mike and I working together can tackle anything. Weekend off after that will be the garage. By that time, the weather should be getting better, so we can focus on the outside of the house...getting the fence fixed up and the yard cleaned up. I am going to put something out on Craigslist for yard toys. I am getting excited. Now that the weather is getting nicer, I know that summer is around the corner. It is coming, it is getting nearer.
Yes, I still get mopey when Mike has to go to work. I still miss him, but part of it is that I like being home and getting to play SAHM. This is what I was meant to do, not what I have to do.
Love to All.
I feel guilty because I was not able to be around for Michael when he was little. Of course, I can make up for it now. I can be the Mom that I always wanted to be. I just need to quit this stupid job and focus on what is important.
I need to get my butt in gear. I need to get things in order so I can quit my job. So I can open my home to children. I am very excited. We got the spare room cleaned out. Next on the agenda is the basement...that is going to be hardest...but Mike and I working together can tackle anything. Weekend off after that will be the garage. By that time, the weather should be getting better, so we can focus on the outside of the house...getting the fence fixed up and the yard cleaned up. I am going to put something out on Craigslist for yard toys. I am getting excited. Now that the weather is getting nicer, I know that summer is around the corner. It is coming, it is getting nearer.
Yes, I still get mopey when Mike has to go to work. I still miss him, but part of it is that I like being home and getting to play SAHM. This is what I was meant to do, not what I have to do.
Love to All.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Getting to Know You ~ Again...
This time there are FIFTY questions!!! I grabbed this from sparkpeople.com. It is a popular website for dieters...heck, I just Googled "getting to know you" and this came up...
1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? ~ my first name...no, but my middle name is Alice...after some Great, Great Aunt that I never met...
2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? ~ just this morning...life gets overwhelming sometimes...
3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? ...ick...
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? ~ smoked turkey breast
5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? ~ one darling son...Michael Anthony, five years old
6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? ~ I think so. I am generally a fun person...when I am in the right mood. I hate that I am not the person that I used to be. I am a shell of the person I used to be.
7. DO YOU USE SARCASM ALOT? ~ oh yes...too much I think sometimes...
8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? ~ yes
9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? ~ absolutely
10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? ~ right now, Chocolate Cheerios
11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? ~ no...I am so lazy...
12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG? ~ I used to...but not so much anymore...
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM? ~ Edy's Loaded Peanut Butter Cup...
14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? ~ how they are dressed...very shallow, I know...
15. RED OR PINK? ~ red...
16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? ~ my bipolar depression disorder. I hate that it makes me the way it makes me...
17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? ~ my Grandma Grote, who passed away almost ten years ago...and family and friends who are far away...
18. WHAT IS THE PAUL MCKENNA TECHNIQUE THAT YOU NEED TO WORK ON THE MOST? ~ who the hell is Paul McKenna and what is his technique??? Must Google this...
19. WHAT COLOR SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? ~ none...I hate shoes...love to buy the cute ones, but hate to wear them...
20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? ~ Tyson Dino Nuggets and Steak Fries (not OP, but easy...)
21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? ~ whatever is on Nick Jr., I think it is "Jack's Big Music Show"...
22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? ~ today I am feeling black...somedays I feel yellow and some I feel red...depends on my mood...
23. FAVORITE SMELLS? ~ my mom's yellow cake baking (and it has to be a YELLOW cake), Michael after he has his bath (we still use baby wash)
24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? ~ my little sister, Ellen
25. MOUNTAIN HIDEAWAY OR BEACH HOUSE? ~ beach house, hands down...
26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH? ~ baseball, hockey, football, college basketball...
27. HAIR COLOR? ~ ooohh...blonde, brown highlights...beautiful, thanks to Matt the Magical hairstylist...
28. EYE COLOR? ~ blue
29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? ~ went back to glasses...just easer for me...and I love my frames...
30. FAVORITE FOOD? ~ steak...
31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? ~ happy endings...
32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? ~ I hate watching movies on TV...they are a waste of my time...
33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? ~ black sweater with grey and bright pink argyle diamonds...
34. SUMMER OR WINTER? ~ summer...
35. HUGS OR KISSES? ~ both!!!
36. FAVORITE DESSERT? ~ hard to pick just one...like so many...
37. STRENGTH TRAINING OR CARDIO? ~ cardio...
38. COMPUTER OR TELEVISION? ~ favorite??? Can't decide...love both!!!
39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? ~ it is called "Barefoot"...I forget the author...
40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? ~ nothing...I use a laptop...fingermouse...
42. FAVORITE SOUND? ~ Michael's laughter...train whistles (???)...the music from Fantasmic!
43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES? ~ the Rolling Stones...my first concert ever...
44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME? ~ Walt Disney World...though it was my home for awhile...
45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT? ~ sadly enough...no...but I am told that I am incredibly patient...I think that could be a talent..
46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN? ~ Saint Louis, MO
47. WHERE ARE YOU LIVING NOW? ~ outside Saint Louis, MO (Saint Peters, MO)
48. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR HOUSE? ~ white...
49. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR CAR? ~ tan...
50. DO YOU LIKE ANSWERING 50 QUESTIONS? ~ it filled a blogpost!!!
Love to All
1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? ~ my first name...no, but my middle name is Alice...after some Great, Great Aunt that I never met...
2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? ~ just this morning...life gets overwhelming sometimes...
3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? ...ick...
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? ~ smoked turkey breast
5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? ~ one darling son...Michael Anthony, five years old
6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? ~ I think so. I am generally a fun person...when I am in the right mood. I hate that I am not the person that I used to be. I am a shell of the person I used to be.
7. DO YOU USE SARCASM ALOT? ~ oh yes...too much I think sometimes...
8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? ~ yes
9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? ~ absolutely
10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? ~ right now, Chocolate Cheerios
11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? ~ no...I am so lazy...
12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG? ~ I used to...but not so much anymore...
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM? ~ Edy's Loaded Peanut Butter Cup...
14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? ~ how they are dressed...very shallow, I know...
15. RED OR PINK? ~ red...
16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? ~ my bipolar depression disorder. I hate that it makes me the way it makes me...
17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? ~ my Grandma Grote, who passed away almost ten years ago...and family and friends who are far away...
18. WHAT IS THE PAUL MCKENNA TECHNIQUE THAT YOU NEED TO WORK ON THE MOST? ~ who the hell is Paul McKenna and what is his technique??? Must Google this...
19. WHAT COLOR SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? ~ none...I hate shoes...love to buy the cute ones, but hate to wear them...
20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? ~ Tyson Dino Nuggets and Steak Fries (not OP, but easy...)
21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? ~ whatever is on Nick Jr., I think it is "Jack's Big Music Show"...
22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? ~ today I am feeling black...somedays I feel yellow and some I feel red...depends on my mood...
23. FAVORITE SMELLS? ~ my mom's yellow cake baking (and it has to be a YELLOW cake), Michael after he has his bath (we still use baby wash)
24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? ~ my little sister, Ellen
25. MOUNTAIN HIDEAWAY OR BEACH HOUSE? ~ beach house, hands down...
26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH? ~ baseball, hockey, football, college basketball...
27. HAIR COLOR? ~ ooohh...blonde, brown highlights...beautiful, thanks to Matt the Magical hairstylist...
28. EYE COLOR? ~ blue
29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? ~ went back to glasses...just easer for me...and I love my frames...
30. FAVORITE FOOD? ~ steak...
31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? ~ happy endings...
32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? ~ I hate watching movies on TV...they are a waste of my time...
33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? ~ black sweater with grey and bright pink argyle diamonds...
34. SUMMER OR WINTER? ~ summer...
35. HUGS OR KISSES? ~ both!!!
36. FAVORITE DESSERT? ~ hard to pick just one...like so many...
37. STRENGTH TRAINING OR CARDIO? ~ cardio...
38. COMPUTER OR TELEVISION? ~ favorite??? Can't decide...love both!!!
39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? ~ it is called "Barefoot"...I forget the author...
40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? ~ nothing...I use a laptop...fingermouse...
42. FAVORITE SOUND? ~ Michael's laughter...train whistles (???)...the music from Fantasmic!
43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES? ~ the Rolling Stones...my first concert ever...
44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME? ~ Walt Disney World...though it was my home for awhile...
45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT? ~ sadly enough...no...but I am told that I am incredibly patient...I think that could be a talent..
46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN? ~ Saint Louis, MO
47. WHERE ARE YOU LIVING NOW? ~ outside Saint Louis, MO (Saint Peters, MO)
48. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR HOUSE? ~ white...
49. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR CAR? ~ tan...
50. DO YOU LIKE ANSWERING 50 QUESTIONS? ~ it filled a blogpost!!!
Love to All
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
...absent...
...have I already written a post titled "absent"??? I may have. I have been absent here of late. My heart has not been into blogging. I have been so busy, that some nights I don't even turn on the computer!!! Okay, so I turn it on...check a few things, but I don't get onto Blogger!!!
Not much going on.
I feel like my bipolar disorder is eating me alive. Somedays, my thoughts paraylize me. The highs and lows are ruling me. Right now, I am in a funk. Getting up and getting going takes everything out of me. I don't even want to move.
That is part of the reason why I have not been blogging. The funk I am in means that I am not doing a lot. I am going into work...though I don't want to. I am making sure Michael is up and dressed and fed...BUT that is a struggle somedays. Mike is a saint. I don't know how he puts up with me. I really don't. Mike sets his alarm in the morning...just to talk to me. I don't deserve such a wonderful man.
See. This is how I think. This is part of what goes through my head.
Love to All.
Not much going on.
I feel like my bipolar disorder is eating me alive. Somedays, my thoughts paraylize me. The highs and lows are ruling me. Right now, I am in a funk. Getting up and getting going takes everything out of me. I don't even want to move.
That is part of the reason why I have not been blogging. The funk I am in means that I am not doing a lot. I am going into work...though I don't want to. I am making sure Michael is up and dressed and fed...BUT that is a struggle somedays. Mike is a saint. I don't know how he puts up with me. I really don't. Mike sets his alarm in the morning...just to talk to me. I don't deserve such a wonderful man.
See. This is how I think. This is part of what goes through my head.
Love to All.
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