Monday, September 14, 2009

...amazing what you can do...

More like amazing what you can do on three hours sleep!!! I can't believe that I am sitting here at almost 10pm, after working all day...and I mean all day...and I am just now getting tired.

I had an amazing OP day (On Plan for all of my non-Weight Watchers friends). It is amazing what a little planning does. I did not get any APs (Activity Points) in, but they are quite hard to fit in on days where I work. I am not one for excuses, but I leave my house at 7:15 am and get home at 8:30 pm...most nights I am wiped!!! I do get APs in on my days off. I work four days, off three days, so I get activity in then. Heck, I should be pleased. Three days is better than what I used to get...NONE!!! :0) I mananged to meet all of my 8 GHGs (Good Health Guidelines) today. I am just amazed. I have started WW many, many times...but this time it is sticking. I recommitted in June...stayed on track, but not active in the community while I was going through a rough patch. My plan is to have DH take a photo of me this week to shop where I am "starting". I am excited. Something is really clicking this time.

Since I was out of comission last week, with the Vertigo/Labryinthits I had a lot of catching up to do at work today. Not so much with work stuff...that takes care of itself!!! I had a lot of rescheduling to do. Rescheduled THREE doctor appointments for myself and Little Man, arranged for me to have my bloodwork done (finally!!!), rescheduled Little Man's IEP (Individualized Education Program) and PAT (Parents as Teachers) meetings. The only thing left for me to do is reschedule my appointment with the ENT (ear, nose, throat) doctor to get to the bottom of this weird Vertigo thing. Oh, tomorrow I am going to call a Psycharitist. Yes, I am going to take the next step. I am already in therapy...but my therapist wants me to see a doctor to help me. Help me with...getting my meds straight, face the facts about my obsessive traits, help me with my compulsive overeating and sneak eating. That is JUST the tip of the much more to crack, but I actually did a little research and found a new Doctor that may just click with me. I am going to call to see if I can be worked in. Wish me luck!!!

I am going to try to head to bed...we will see what the insonmia is like tonight.  I hope to wake up early enough to get to the Rec-Plex for a workout!!!  Whoo-hoo!!!

A lot of stuff covered, nothing too exciting...just another day in my little world!!!

My goodness...a lot of acrynoyms in this post!!! ;0)

...insomnia??? this is technically Monday, but in my mind it is still Sunday night. I should have been asleep more than two hours ago!!! I was all ready for bed, laid down. I felt sleepy. My eyes are heavy and I have been yawning...however, when I try to sleep, my mind is racing, racing, racing. Stupid stuff. I don't know if it is the meds that are for the diziness and nausea. This is the second night. Could not sleep Friday night and can't sleep Sunday night. The only reason I slept Saturday night is because I took a blasted sleeping pill. Yeah, I slept 12 hours!!! I can't do that I took an anxiety pill...not really anxious, but maybe that is why the mind is racing. Anyway, I am hoping it will take the edge off and help me fall asleep. At this point, when my alarm starts to go off at 5am, I will have had about four hours of sleep!!! Yikes!!! Let's see how I do at work with four hours of sleep...I work an almost 12 hour day!!! I leave for the house at 715 in the morning, and get home about 8 at night!!! I should be good and tired tomorrow night!!!

We went to the Cardinals game today...Little Man had such a great time!!! I might try to figure out how to get photos on this thing...liven it up a bit. Heck, I have the time...might as well try it...

Well, I tried it and the picture is up at the top of the blog...something I will have to work on, I am sure.  I will try to figure all of this out.  In the meantime...I may try to fall asleep...sweet dreams friends.  So much to share tomorrow...if I am not too tired.  Planned my OP snacks, breakfast and lunch.  I am so excited!!!  Now, if I can get this sleeping under control...I can maybe hit the gym in the morning.  More to follow...may not be all that exciting, but to me it's just another day in my little world...  :0)

Saturday, September 12, 2009

...third time is the charm...tail tucked between my legs... this is like the millionth third time I have started this thing over. How embarassing!!! Lots going on since the last time I DH confronted me over our finances...UGH. I am, admittedly not good with money. Not good. Wait, I take that back...I am very good at spending it...but that is not the kind of money management he had in mind. He had to take everything over. Everything. I don't have any cash in my wallet, or a debit card to use. Double UGH!!! What if I get stuck without gas. Okay, that would not happen. I mean. It is not the end of the world. I am taking things one step at a time. I planned a weeks worth of meals. This will give leftovers for lunch. Yeah, I don't eat leftovers, so I bought turkey and whole grain wraps to take to work. Blah. This is going to be good for us all around. We will save money and eat better. No QT fountain Diet Coke (oh, how I will miss you), no junky McDonalds for breakfast on the way into work (oh happy little sausage burritos, I will miss you...your hashbrown cousins, not so much), no whatever-I-happen-to-be-hungry-for-for-lunch (I work in a Credit Union located inside a Super Walmart for heaven's sake!!!). Yes, I will stick with my fresh fruit smoothie for breakfast, my whole-wheat-turkey-wrap-thing for lunch, pack sensible snacks (like carrots...yum!!!) and bring my water and Crystal Light. Livin' La Vida Loca, I tell ya...Livin' La Vida Loca...

This has been a challenging week. Started out normal. I was off work Monday for the holiday, and Tuesday, Wednesday and Saturday for my days off. I was only to show up to work on Thursday and Friday. Two days. Thats it. Yeah, I woke up Tuesday morning and could not focus, see straight and take three steps without vomiting!!! Vertigo strikes again, or so I thought. No, I went to the Doctor on Wednesday and was diagnosed with Labrynthits (sp???). Fluid behind the ear, causing the canal or something like that to swell. Long story short, too dizzy to stand, walk, drive. Could not go to work, doctor released me back on Monday. I HATE HAVING TO CALL OUT FROM WORK!!! Not that I put work before anything...but it is my job and it pays the I have to keep my nose clean. I work in a branch of only six people it seems that we are always short staffed. It should not bother me so...but I really can't stand leaving my co-workers high and dry. They are a great group of ladies, and I am sure that they understand...but still...I feel guilty. My mind wants to work, but my body has other ideas.

Little Man started his swim lessons today, and LOVED them!!! I am so happy. I have to keep him active and going...I don't want him to struggle with weight issues like his father and I have to. Of course, we were both pretty active kids when we were growing up. Things were so different for kids growing up in the seventies and eighties. Sure, we had our Atari to play...but we still played outside until the streetlight came on!!! Little Man seems so secluded, so isolated. Sometimes, I blame myself. If I did not work, then I would be at home with him all of the time and would be able to have his friends over. Okay, I need to help him make friends. Arugghhh!!! My head is spinning!!! Do we push our kids too hard too early??? I could go on and on and on...but it is getting late. My mere three hours of sleep are finally catching up with me. Though it is early for a Saturday night, I may be turning in...

We are heading to the Cardinals game tomorrow...can't wait!!! Busy week, work...Book Fair at Little Man's school on Tuesday and his IEP/Parent Teacher Conference on Friday. We joined the Rec-Plex here in Saint Peters (google it, I can't explain it) so I am going to try to fit in a walk around the track or a swim in the pool. I am excited!!! Keep everyone posted!!!