Monday, April 11, 2011

...back on track???

Okay, so I put my big girl pants on and went back to a Weight Watchers meeting today.  I am currently at the heaviest weight I have EVER been.  I am even heavier now than when I delivered Little Man almost seven years ago.  I seriously have to look at this as a lifestyle change (I know, I have always said that).  I will have to monitor my food intake and activity for the rest of my life.  I am not a professional, though I have visited professionals, but I believe that I am addicted to food.  I don't eat if I am happy/sad/lonely/depressed, etc.  I eat because I like it.  It gives me a high.  I equate this to what a drug addict or an alcoholic feels like when they get their "fix".  Of course, you need food to don't need drugs or alcohol.  This is where the struggle comes in.  I also look at the money side of it.  I spent $140 at the grocery store yesterday, and I have to ask myself "what did I get???".  I could spend four bucks at McDonalds, get two McChicken Sandwiches, a small fry and a large Diet Coke.  All that, and I don't have to cook.  I have to change my way of thinking.  I bought a lot of fresh produce and lean proteins and low-fat dairy.  Now, I have to learn how to cook/prepare/serve these things. 

Tonight, not so good.  Dinner was Macaroni & Cheese.  Kraft.  From a box.

I am getting better.  The fast food thing is going to be hard.  I am going to have to wrap my head around the new PointsPlus system.  Mike and I are committed to going back to the gym this week.  I just need to plan, and we all know how good I am at planning.  :)

On to the 30 Day Blog Challenge...

Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends

This is a pretty old photo...I had to dig it out.  Again, it is me, Lisa and Lia.  I think this was taken in maybe 1993-1994-ish.  I am not good with the dates.  We may not have been 21 yet.   If we were 21, it might be just barely...or Lia and Lisa were, and I still had not had my birthday.  I remember thinking I was such a cow in this photo...oh, how I would love to go back to this weight.  I would love to find a photo of me at my thinnest...which was around 1999-2000 when I was living in Florida.  I did not know how to cook, and I did not have a lot of money to eat out all of the time.  I am not sure how I survived, but I did.  I was also very good about working out each and every day.  I will have to see if I can find a photo and scan it in. 

That is about all I know for now.

Love to All.

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